Ok I realized I have only posted once on this blog but I am planning to change that, so here it goes. Let me just start with saying... WOW! I thought last year was busy let me tell you all about this year. I can't believe that I've been here almost two years. Oklahoma City has given me a new lease on life, while that might sound incredibly cheesy, I have done things that I never thought I would. I have joined Jr. League, started to try for a family with Derek, and remain involved with family back home.
The most important of these was/is trying to have a baby. It all started last October when my dad took a bad turn in his health. My daddy has always been my hero and my guardian, until Derek came along of course. He has been my rock when I thought nothing in this world would go right. I have always been a daddy's girl and forever shall be. It's been hard seeing the man who taught me to do so many things be so ill. Anyway ! He's doing so much better now, better being the subjective word, even though he is still waiting on a kidney transplant.
Derek and I have always held the institution of marriage and family at a high regard. It's just the way our parents raised us. I have forever wanted to be a "house-wife and mother". While some women have high-powered office jobs, I've always thought that being a mother and wife was as equally important. SO ... Derek and I are trying to have a baby. I knew it was going to be diffucult but I had NO idea it was going to be this hard. We started on our own last October like I said and to no avail I'm still not a mommy. I have seen a lot of my friends get pregnant and most closest and best friend Meagan get to experience the new adventure of "mommy-hood". I know that it is in God's hands and that he has a plan for our family. I just feel like a failure to not be able to do this so easily, like MANY women do. So here we are a year later and nothing has happened. I don't know what the next step will be but I can only imagine it will be another adventure.
